Burn

The other day I was thinking about "the call of god".

(Disclaimer: I don't know what I'm talking about! I'm not a theologian or anything. these are just my thoughts.)

I was just thinking about how this has played into my life (though it is a short one, so far), and that sort of thing. It is something that I have thought about quite a bit. especially over the last year or so. But this morning I realized something that I think might be key. I realized that every time in my life that I have heard God "calling" me, it is not when I'm striving to hear from Him.

I suppose to some extent, I am always striving to hear Him, So maybe I should specify what I mean. I guess I should say, obsessing about making plans, and almost worrying about what it is I should be doing with my life. Obsessions don't do us much good in this life (unless it is about God).

But anywho, I was realizing that the times when I feel the most called to do something, it is not when I'm asking him to, but when I'm simply focusing on Him, and trying my best to love Him, and those around me. Then I thought about this analogy. Its pretty a pretty commonly used parallel, but it fit here, too.

Ok, so you know how the bible says that we are the light of the world? well, it's true. I see it like this: Every person in the world is like a tea candle. But at first, we are not lit. we just wander around in the dark, bumping into other unlit tea candles. And God is like the sun. But he is So bright, and hot, that he can't really reveal Him self to us, except in small doses. So, one day, he sent a match along (Jesus), so that some of us could be lit, and in turn light up others.

So, you might ask, "how dose this relate at all to God will for our lives?" Well, you see, even after we are lit, our flame is pretty small. We can only illuminate a small area around us. Just one tea candle in a dark room does not do much. You need allot of them to really be affective. So God who is light, and is the only one who knows all of the little lights, -lit and unlit- sometimes brings many of them together, and makes a bonfire, and turns a bunch of tiny flames into something more. But we are small, and without him, are just stumbling around, only aware of our own little circles of light. we can't see the big picture, that is a darkened world. when we try to seek out the bonfire that he has for us on our own, we fail. but if we just focus on burning as bright as we can, while keeping in mind that it is His light, and not our own, then he will lead us to where we need to be. He can and will-if we let him- do great things with us.

... So go little candles, and burn for the one who lit you.