Nerves.

NervousNervousNervousNervousNervousNervous!

.....That's all.

My thoughts; the condensed version.

I have allot on my mind to say the least. First, and most obvious, the Pyles. All I really can do is pray. I just don't know how to feel about it, so this is the shortest (and yet the most important) thing I'm going to say. Pleas Pray for them.

Well... on Thursday night, I'm going to Calvary, and go to class and chapel with a student there. I'm. So. Nervous. I don't really know why... other than the fact that this could be my future. Also, I got my transcripts sent from Flo today, so all I have to do is wait and see if they accept me.

Lastly, I'm going to be out of town for the next to weekends, so I probably won't see you guys much. I really dislike that idea. I hate getting easily attached to people. But I've talked about that before, and I think I mostly need to get over it. Anyway, I love you all even if you don't see me for a bit... See you later.

Today I need to...

Stop loving what isn't and bask in reality.
To dream is to live
And hope moves us forward.
But dwelling on futile notions of what will be,
Of what could be... That will only leave me empty.

A solution:
Love small thing.
Don't hold back those childish fancies that come unexpectedly.
As we grow, they become fewer and fewer.
Capture them when they come, and exhaust them.
If in the proses, you find your self exhausted, even better.
Don't forget the things that make you human.

The(abrupt) end (of my self-reminder...)

Seven!

Stella had SEVEN kittens yesterday. here are some pictures that Sarah to

That is allot for a cat that has never had kittens before. And It's sort or surprising that they all lived, and were all OK. I didn't realize how small they would be. I guess that I was also allot smaller the last time that we had cats this small...

It's kind of amazing. they are full cats, with whiskers, and claws and everything! but their just shrunken! Crazy...

Well, that's about all. I just thought I should express to you all, my fascination.

"These thoughts of mine are random."

"Jack Bauer is a stud." -My Dad!

I just had to share that. it was the best part of my day so far.

Anyway, Things improved after spring break. In many ways. My schedule is better, and busier. I like it though. Only 6.5 weeks of school left till summer. I'm pretty sure I'm going to Calvary. and that makes me so exited and so afraid at the same time. I know it going away will be good for me, and I'm sure I will like it once I get used to it, but as you may well know, I am very bad at change.

Also, before the break, life felt, for lack of a better word, just sort of disjointed. Not bad, just sort of not normal, and not quite lined up right. I don't know if I'm even making sense, but that's OK!

So after this Sunday, I really want to read the book of Hosea. I've read some of it, and I know the story, but I think I want to understand it better. So I'll probably do that. Also, I may read this book again. (for the millionth time)

That is all for now, but expect more in the near future. I just re-realized how much I really like blogging.

Where?

Grapes. Emery. The smell of last year on my hands. It helps.

Just today.

I got this book today at the Library.

I already love it. It's all about how people have used codes since the dawn of time, and it talks about Hieroglyphs, and other ancient kinds of writing. I also talks about the people who used them, like the Free Masons, and Christians in early Rome, and I could go on and on, but I will spare you.

The more I say the word "Codes" the more I think the it could also be a really funny nick-name for the name Cody. (But spelled with a "z" of course)

Also, I really like Spanish class. It is my favorite.

Lastly, I want it to be spring. SO. BAD!

That is the end. Good bey.